...ahhhhh ...

Hmmm.... so beautiful as they say when one can sit long enough to be still in the moment to view the silver lining in the clouds. I am grateful beyond any words in this precious moment for the consistent, ever-so-present gifting of the divine to each of us, as these wonderful beings and children of the universe!! Yesterday's call out has been answered although the manifestation has still yet to arrive for the physical eyes to view! The power within truth when shared with souls of the same frequency is absolute in its' creation. I gleefully await the comings of this sacred expression that is being laboured as I am guided to write this blog. Who would of thought just 7 months ago while joining together in sacred commune, most of us stangers in the physical, would be brought together now, in this moment, to begin a process of co-creation that will truly help to serve the world ... it is to be a "world peace organization" that is filled with infinite love, wisdom and all that is miraculously being called forward by the universe! THANK YOU - this is the gift of abundant gratitude I offer all today, this day, as we continue to birth our dreams ... namaste loved ones, namaste - apachebluemoon

.. and so it is ...

One never knows what the day will bring or the feelings, thoughts, associations or perceptions that may find their way - I was awoken this morning to a deep sense of isolation; almost as if my spirit self had disappeared not even to be found underneath the covers. Now, of course, not fully understanding the depth of any of what was appearing SO REAL to me in those moments, I found myself immediately in a mode of infinite surrender ... calling on all those to be beside me - almost like a SOS call to the higher beings I know that are always here in my presence. I was not fearful - just completely "beaten down" if that can even come close to the moment. Thoughts of finding a cave, hanging my hat and simply just allowing all to flow through was more real to me than my usual "morning coffee fix". I found myself guided to the computer to check emails and within moments I was replying to a friend's message she had sent the night before. Before I knew it, my fingers were typing 10,000 words a minute (slight exageration) to see right beneath my glasses the words describing this incredible state of "whatever" it was I was being blessed to experience. I could go into detail with all of my glorious descriptive measures but will save that as the truer meaning to all of this soon was shown. I placed my response into the draft section so that I could go and have a shower. When I returned to the computer, a few things happened. First, I was led to checking another site to find this email awaiting my arrival:
"Because it is your responsibility to handle this level, no one can really tell you what to do, and you can't really blame anyone else for what happens to you. As choices present themselves to you, you might feel confused, doubtful, or bewildered. The future can become fraught with fears because you can't predict what's going to happen. That fear becomes a form of suffering. Again, the way to get out of that fear is to bring yourself present, in the now, and live in each moment." (John-Roger ... "Loving Each Day")
The second gift was to receive a beautiful call out from one of the seminarians that I was honoured to share space with at the retreat in June - her comment was "that it has been 7 months since the retreat and there is a sense of drifting ..."Certainly no mistakes as the information continued to flood in. By now, I am fully awake and present that my morning mood was more than just a mood - I was being told something although until I opened yet another email I was still not quite sure. The final gift was that, another message sent to me while I had been typing my response to my friend. I had no idea this exchange of truth was happening at the same time. In her message, she proceeds to share all of what I was previously feeling ... she described in detail everything that I had typed as if we had seen each others' thoughts .... there truly are no words except for the acknowledgement of divine workings. Once you can slow your pace and allow whatever thoughts to run their course, all solutions and answers will find you.... I am amazed at the state of being I am one with in this moment .... a completely different experience than just moments ago! I do believe that we have the power in our choices to be that peace, be that love, be all of whom we have come here to be .... it truly is not in the doing but rather in the acceptance and glory of all things! The conclusion to this early morning call with spirit physically left me to see on my screen a recent interview with Osama Bin Laden's son .... and his quest for world peace!!! Within the very heart and essence of us all IS the same gift of truth .... the oneness we all share even if the individual struggles seem to separate us from this deeper sacred reality.... On this day, my prayer for all, is to go forward in the knowing and understanding that peace does prevail - always ... it just might take some time and courage to see it! Love and light, in oneness with all ...apachebluemoon

foundations

What an interesting time I find self and soul in these last few weeks. The birthing of a new year, the dawning of innocence and flow of long awaited and embraced wisdom sits before us all should we be willing to say "yes" to all of what it entails. Does the commitment of today's yes align itself with yesterday's knowings or have those too been given an opportunity to expand as does the universe right before our very own eyes! Do we remain placed in the so very comfortable roles we have become familar with or do we dare step up and out into the vulnerability that accompanies the journey of the heart back into sacred soul? Questions appear each and every moment for one to decide the next move ... confusions as the matrix or puzzle pieces of our lives are rearranged and placed in their sanctioned space of perfection. Where does one go when darkness shows it's magical calling; how does one face the unknowingness of what anything truly means? I have challenged my being these last few weeks in the hope of having all be revealed as I continue on to surrender to what has become the only reality I can ever know for my self and being from this point forward. It has taken me back into my foundation ... a gift to see all of who I am and not through the eyes of others but rather through that of my creator. My essence that sometimes appears fragmented and torn as others' seek solace within their own understandings, through me, of what life and purpose mean to them while in their own travels. Divine appointments with the mother and father of me, this being I have so come to know, once again. I have touched the love that has never left me or can never be destroyed; no matter who chooses to see this and accept this. The realness of spending 7 hours alone in the blessed sanctuary in direct commune with those ascended masters who are with me every moment, every breath ... my life can never or will ever be the same again. To be allowed this profound experiece of dancing with the angels, singing in complete harmony, surrendering to the calibration of miracles .... how can I ever give into the darkness after having felt the presence of all? Today I give the completeness of my heart - I honour and acknowledge the infinite gratitude I have for all beings, all life, all love! I have been shown the truth that I had so long ago asked to be shown but so afraid to embrace. The power of the feminine, the beauty of divine sacred union - all of this and so much more. I am home .. in the arms of those who will guide me to reach beyond and offer the truth to all whom desire to be reached and shown the love of God that dwells within the gift of divine creation. I wipe the tears from falling as I write this from the very depth of my heart, my oneness with the essence of all life. Remember the truth, embrace the foundation, uphold the spirit that makes this day worth living .... in love and light with peace as your guide ... apachebluemoon

dedicated to "an eagles soul"

It does happen to all at some point in our lives .. we are prepared and given the choice for a new freedom of flight! As this year finds its way to completion, I ponder the wonders of the past almost 12 months and the many numerous changes that have been brought forth for me on a deep personal level - all for the purpose of higher growth and understanding. The mesmerizing awe of seeing this beautiful creature take flight right before my eyes after being summoned through prayer not even 3 hours prior; and then to witness his magnificence as he showed himself to me in complete confidence that we both would know the deeper meaning of his presence - this left me truly in complete gratitude and reverence for all life and things gifted and brought forth in the highest state of love and infinite grace!
Although change can bring with it much uncertainty at times, the freedom that reigns when one can simply let go, trust and allow for the movement and spreading of life's wings is beyond anything that the heart can physically describe - it truly is an experience of the sacred divine in its finest moments. "We need only open our eyes to let the fears away ...." - " to see all that stands before us, waiting for us to choose ..."
This blogsite has gifted me with the incredible opportunity to reach those whom are being guided to discover, nurture and embrace their own path of flight. For this I am and will be forever grateful to the powers that be that make all of these gifts possible. As the new year is soon to find its way, so too will a newness of expression be birthed for me. There will soon be the unveiling of the long awaited website that will support the continued growth and expansive creativity needing to be shared ... "as we grow so does our inner most desires for a much broader scope and landscape!"
This year has been one out of a fairytale book for me in terms of how the power of prayer, enlightened vision and true heart manifestation all come together in the most exquisite form of one's life dance in complete peace and harmony ... there is still more to come, I know, before this year can be released - still a few moments of final preparation, gratitude, gifting and receiving before the newness can dawn! It will be next weekend that I will be "fully walking into who I truly am" - when the initiation into one's own divine self-mastery will be fully recognized and bestowed in heart ... 41 years to physically see what was chosen and placed into the arms of the universe at the age of 14 - there are no mistakes!!! I will hold all whom have blessed me in my journey thus far and offer my deepest gratitude and love for the infinite ways you have all helped me reach this point of higher sight ...my heart sings for all - thank you! I have been held and guided by the most loving of all beings ... the path that lays before me, the medicines that have been presented - all as movement into the honouring of the deepest recognition of truth in remembering that of our divine essence ... sacred love! My heart has become one through the embrace of your light and love "white buffalo calf woman" ... there are no words other than I AM!!
My truest wish and prayer for all on this glorious day, and always, is to have the light of spirit lift us all into higher flight .. towards the dreams the heart has savoured and protected for each one of us. For our entire beings to know the truth that is alive and waiting to be freed within our soul. It is time now to reflect and allow for all of what each of us are worthy of receiving and experiencing - may we each unfold our wings, find the courage to breathe and prepare ourselves for the destined flight ahead as we soar into the reality of our very own heart's desires .... Namaste wondrous beings - in light, love and sacred flight ... apachebluemoon

anam cara

..." so at some point we stop asking questions and we start being who we are spiritually -- not our personality, which is apparent reality, but the authentic one, the Spirit inside, the one that never died"... - John Roger

May all of life be first discovered within the sanctuary of our beings - this requires utmost courage in order to allow for the blooming of our eternal flower ... Namaste my most beautiful ones - may we all be blessed to recognize our own anam cara ....