... so fundamentally male ...

Well ... to those of you whom are my male readers, this title should grab your attention! Relax, there are no judgements or sly comments coming - in fact, mere observation. Today was very interesting as it brought forth the opportunity for me to serve as a sounding board for a few special people. The main theme spoken and shared was that of the "male energies" and how the fears and control play a crucial part in so many of the relationship playgrounds we all find ourselves in, no matter the depth of evolution! Now this is not to say one has to be male in body parts in order to experience the male energy ... quite on the contrary, as each of our beautiful beings are made up of both feminine and masculine tendancies. What is being referred to here is the element of the ego when in the mode of control ... when the feminine qualities of love, understanding and compassion are being buried and hidden within the expression of doubts, ignorance, supreme assertiveness, judgements etc. We have all experienced this, some firsthand within self and/or on the receiving end of another being. Nonetheless, the manner in which it is delivered is not really the issue at hand. The truth being touched upon here is the damage to the spirit when one is involved in this form of energy exchange. It is said that, "there is nothing to control, it is only a state of being...." My heart tells me this is true and as a present, loving spiritual being here on this earth plane to experience the human experience - it does seem fitting that there would have to be moments where both of the energy components within us would need to find their own means of healthy expression. The key though, is to recognize and support the "healthy expression" of both our own masculine and feminine qualites all awhile honouring the balance that resides within that very sacred dynamic. My sweet precious friend whom ended our conversation with , "it is just so fundamentally male", is being honoured and showered with gratitude tonight for her profound awareness and insight. I acknowledge this gift of truth that those words have brought forth for all to contemplate; for truly when there IS a balance, there is nothing to control! My prayer for all in this moment, is for a space of silence in which to bath and cleanse our souls free; to embrace the responsibility that lays within the gifting of any wisdom which is always, "the ability to respond" ... may your beings be surrounded and engulfed within the light of the very balanced holy spirit as you lay your heads down to rest tonight ... god bless to all - apachebluemoon

you are greater than any of your actions

... you can transcend all things that you have had done and participated in doing ...

HOW is this accomplished one might ask when so many of us live in a world that appears to be richly laden with memories of uncertainty and deep rooted misunderstandings of experiences gone bad! Are these just words and guidance of good intent or can there really be truth to this profound release of bondage to the heart?
As mystics and ancient wise ones have taught for eternity ... yes - all of this IS more than just a figment of a crazy person's imagination. Sacred Love begins inside ... self love is a process of rediscovering what has never been destroyed. It is the dance with ones' essence that has awaited and called us all, some more than others. A truer source of strength is generated within us all when there is a change of perception. This movement is the connection that guides and allows the gentle flow into ones' union with the true, divine spiritual source ... the void that contains the sum of all god, right here, right now in this very moment of present time and heavenly presence ....
The choice, as always, is ours! My prayer for the day is to recognize that beautiful opportunity of newness that calls your name; the one that invites you in to savour perhaps a different thought, or gesture that will invoke a deeper connection and meaning to who you truly are ... no need to fear the unknown, you are loved and the world awaits your gift, your smile, your serving!!! love and blessings ... apachebluemoon

...ahhhhh ...

Hmmm.... so beautiful as they say when one can sit long enough to be still in the moment to view the silver lining in the clouds. I am grateful beyond any words in this precious moment for the consistent, ever-so-present gifting of the divine to each of us, as these wonderful beings and children of the universe!! Yesterday's call out has been answered although the manifestation has still yet to arrive for the physical eyes to view! The power within truth when shared with souls of the same frequency is absolute in its' creation. I gleefully await the comings of this sacred expression that is being laboured as I am guided to write this blog. Who would of thought just 7 months ago while joining together in sacred commune, most of us stangers in the physical, would be brought together now, in this moment, to begin a process of co-creation that will truly help to serve the world ... it is to be a "world peace organization" that is filled with infinite love, wisdom and all that is miraculously being called forward by the universe! THANK YOU - this is the gift of abundant gratitude I offer all today, this day, as we continue to birth our dreams ... namaste loved ones, namaste - apachebluemoon

.. and so it is ...

One never knows what the day will bring or the feelings, thoughts, associations or perceptions that may find their way - I was awoken this morning to a deep sense of isolation; almost as if my spirit self had disappeared not even to be found underneath the covers. Now, of course, not fully understanding the depth of any of what was appearing SO REAL to me in those moments, I found myself immediately in a mode of infinite surrender ... calling on all those to be beside me - almost like a SOS call to the higher beings I know that are always here in my presence. I was not fearful - just completely "beaten down" if that can even come close to the moment. Thoughts of finding a cave, hanging my hat and simply just allowing all to flow through was more real to me than my usual "morning coffee fix". I found myself guided to the computer to check emails and within moments I was replying to a friend's message she had sent the night before. Before I knew it, my fingers were typing 10,000 words a minute (slight exageration) to see right beneath my glasses the words describing this incredible state of "whatever" it was I was being blessed to experience. I could go into detail with all of my glorious descriptive measures but will save that as the truer meaning to all of this soon was shown. I placed my response into the draft section so that I could go and have a shower. When I returned to the computer, a few things happened. First, I was led to checking another site to find this email awaiting my arrival:
"Because it is your responsibility to handle this level, no one can really tell you what to do, and you can't really blame anyone else for what happens to you. As choices present themselves to you, you might feel confused, doubtful, or bewildered. The future can become fraught with fears because you can't predict what's going to happen. That fear becomes a form of suffering. Again, the way to get out of that fear is to bring yourself present, in the now, and live in each moment." (John-Roger ... "Loving Each Day")
The second gift was to receive a beautiful call out from one of the seminarians that I was honoured to share space with at the retreat in June - her comment was "that it has been 7 months since the retreat and there is a sense of drifting ..."Certainly no mistakes as the information continued to flood in. By now, I am fully awake and present that my morning mood was more than just a mood - I was being told something although until I opened yet another email I was still not quite sure. The final gift was that, another message sent to me while I had been typing my response to my friend. I had no idea this exchange of truth was happening at the same time. In her message, she proceeds to share all of what I was previously feeling ... she described in detail everything that I had typed as if we had seen each others' thoughts .... there truly are no words except for the acknowledgement of divine workings. Once you can slow your pace and allow whatever thoughts to run their course, all solutions and answers will find you.... I am amazed at the state of being I am one with in this moment .... a completely different experience than just moments ago! I do believe that we have the power in our choices to be that peace, be that love, be all of whom we have come here to be .... it truly is not in the doing but rather in the acceptance and glory of all things! The conclusion to this early morning call with spirit physically left me to see on my screen a recent interview with Osama Bin Laden's son .... and his quest for world peace!!! Within the very heart and essence of us all IS the same gift of truth .... the oneness we all share even if the individual struggles seem to separate us from this deeper sacred reality.... On this day, my prayer for all, is to go forward in the knowing and understanding that peace does prevail - always ... it just might take some time and courage to see it! Love and light, in oneness with all ...apachebluemoon

foundations

What an interesting time I find self and soul in these last few weeks. The birthing of a new year, the dawning of innocence and flow of long awaited and embraced wisdom sits before us all should we be willing to say "yes" to all of what it entails. Does the commitment of today's yes align itself with yesterday's knowings or have those too been given an opportunity to expand as does the universe right before our very own eyes! Do we remain placed in the so very comfortable roles we have become familar with or do we dare step up and out into the vulnerability that accompanies the journey of the heart back into sacred soul? Questions appear each and every moment for one to decide the next move ... confusions as the matrix or puzzle pieces of our lives are rearranged and placed in their sanctioned space of perfection. Where does one go when darkness shows it's magical calling; how does one face the unknowingness of what anything truly means? I have challenged my being these last few weeks in the hope of having all be revealed as I continue on to surrender to what has become the only reality I can ever know for my self and being from this point forward. It has taken me back into my foundation ... a gift to see all of who I am and not through the eyes of others but rather through that of my creator. My essence that sometimes appears fragmented and torn as others' seek solace within their own understandings, through me, of what life and purpose mean to them while in their own travels. Divine appointments with the mother and father of me, this being I have so come to know, once again. I have touched the love that has never left me or can never be destroyed; no matter who chooses to see this and accept this. The realness of spending 7 hours alone in the blessed sanctuary in direct commune with those ascended masters who are with me every moment, every breath ... my life can never or will ever be the same again. To be allowed this profound experiece of dancing with the angels, singing in complete harmony, surrendering to the calibration of miracles .... how can I ever give into the darkness after having felt the presence of all? Today I give the completeness of my heart - I honour and acknowledge the infinite gratitude I have for all beings, all life, all love! I have been shown the truth that I had so long ago asked to be shown but so afraid to embrace. The power of the feminine, the beauty of divine sacred union - all of this and so much more. I am home .. in the arms of those who will guide me to reach beyond and offer the truth to all whom desire to be reached and shown the love of God that dwells within the gift of divine creation. I wipe the tears from falling as I write this from the very depth of my heart, my oneness with the essence of all life. Remember the truth, embrace the foundation, uphold the spirit that makes this day worth living .... in love and light with peace as your guide ... apachebluemoon