Saturday, June 28, 2008

source of all things





Within the many traditions of chosen paths, ceremonial acts are experienced as a means of prayer and honour. It is here that I choose to acknowledge the magic of this spectacular sunset as I was blessed to witness from my sacred home. As the sun was setting west, the incredible glow captured my heart in a manner that truly made me stop in silence. I found myself celebrating the Sun's gift of life that it so effortlessly gives to all of us here on this sacred, holy ground. As I took the picture I offered my deepest gratitude and appreciation for all things that have blessed me thus far. I accepted with an open heart the blessings from this spectacular array of light, this source of sustenance; My prayer this day is for all to walk in the light of the sun and feel the rays of God penetrate our very existence as we celebrate the very blessed gift of this life always .... apachebluemoon

Sunday, June 15, 2008

... a moment in presence ...

>This posting is a response to having been asked to participate in the sharing of a wisdom-filled article for a new section called "Voices of Peace" that will be added to the Beloved World site. I am beyond the concept of being thrilled for the opportunity to submit spirit words that flow through this vessel of mine .. quite an honour I must say! So thank you to those whom are behind this magnificent creation in providing so many a space to be a voice ... Nikita you are so beautiful; my heart and soul will always be thankful for the day we were brought together ... sista! The first portion of this post is what was submitted to the article- I was unable to finish the complete writing as there was a word limit SO the rest is being posted here on this site for those of you whom are guided to read ..... thank you!


… a moment in PRESENCE …

Although this was not one of the topics to choose from, the words gently lingering within my being all point toward the idea and divine opportunity of embracing that of the present moment. As I pondered the various topics offered, I was so able to connect deeply with all but knew I would have to inevitably make a choice at some point in order to actually share whatever inherent wisdom that would find its way into this sacred expression … (not always an easy task for a Gemini like myself!) Needless to say, these thoughts are to serve as a premise for sharing what I am presently experiencing in all of my realms of existence. Before I continue though, I will first begin by offering a few attributes that I believe are essential to embracing that part of our journey in living and being an instrument of Peace, within the present moment. To be awake in and to the many moments of divine presence amongst us always, one must first desire to choose this way of sight. It is inherent within us all as children of the universe yet the use of one’s own free will is what solely supports and allows for this movement to be birthed. There are many factors that enter into this divine contract of presence that support one’s desire to actually choose such a path. Trust is an absolute as is the act of surrender in order to receive the truth of God’s presence in the “now”, within each of the sacred breaths we are gifted. Once these spiritual attributes are put into motion, one of the most important aspects then is simply that of gratitude. With gratitude in hand, one is moved very quickly to see all things in the light of love and acceptance. It is within this space of acceptance that one is then free to dance in the grace of divine presence!


I am going to briefly touch upon 5 of the 11 topics that were given to us to use as a focal point in preparing this article. The first being that of the "creation of the New Earth" ...

My heart and soul smiles when I embrace this idea simply because to me the new earth is an opportunity for the world to reign within a space of balance that has not yet been fully experienced and integrated. The universal shift that supports this movement is one that can be found where there is an abundance of "healthy male and female energies" working in alignment - love outweighing the illusions and trappings of fear. This directly relates to "a moment in presence" for it is completely the outpouring that comes when the natural tendancies of the heart are given the sacredness to simply BE in all of perfection.

In relation to the "Next Generation: the Children" ...
For this topic, I am going to trust the sharing of words that were brought through me many years ago that I had forgotten about completely until just the other day when I was divinely guided to find them ... I will leave it up to the readers to receive and discern ... I was truly unaware of the scraps of paper that had been buried away with this message, only to be found and reminded of this writing from 3 years ago -

"They are on the way as we speak, needed you to join us here in the light. Thank you for coming - welcome! You need not do anything. People are already talking about you, they will approach you and take you and physically meet all the needs in order for your love and peace to be shown and taught. Honestly, crossing the grid was the last of what was required from you. It has always been about us - the children - you know that, you always have; why do you think you have always remained true to the "child of the universe" ... where do you think that came from! (laughter) You are so beautiful in your innocence and naivety. Everything is already done - the preparation has been happening while you've been waking up ... and here you are, finally awake ... good morning on this beautiful Good Friday! No more crucifying, just flying. You will now always see us and hear us. My name is Charlotte - I'm the oldest of the bunch ( I know, your human mind is thinking "boy this is the making of a good book") Please do not trivialize with such small detail - think big, much bigger (more laughter). You mustn't of heard me clearly - "You" will not be doing any of the manifestations, for others have been sequestered for this ... We love music, lots of it! This is how we travel and connect with others ... the frequency thing - why do you think music and dance are what God's kingdom of celebration is all about ... By the way, my name Charlotte is really "share lots"- how's that for playing on word. There is so much more to share (get it) but for now, human duty is calling ... go feed the kids" ..... Since being reacquainted with that writing I now realize that Charlotte has always been with me in my presence, in the form of spiders and webs ... as I was beginning to share this section, she appeared on my computer screen. Amazing how long it takes our human mind to move into recognizing "divine presence"... hmmmm

I am going to combine "Physical Health, disease, wellness with that of family health and crisis situations" ...

To be able to honestly travel through moments of human challenge that arrive at every person's door at some point in this life, there MUST be a belief or better yet, a certainty that there is a presence alive and well within us all that sees only the perfection of all things, each and every moment. Our human mind cannot fathom or even comprehend such an essence yet this is the salvation our heart calls for when we are submerged within compromising situations of all sorts. I am presently surrounded with people that I love and truly care for that are being faced with life and death situations ... imbalance between higher truths of perfection and wholeness to that of human diagnosis of separation and death ... the balance of the pendulum lies within the ability of each spirit to decide what is truth for them ... will it be what can only be seen though human eye OR does one choose to trust and surrender and accept the presence of divinity that supports only, one's wellness? To live and be peace in situations like these does require the presence of divinity so that the soul can reach the plateau it so is seeking! Higher understanding of the sacred laws of spirit is what will usher in the sense of well being while amidst moments of crisis and falsity. This is the human challenge of these times .... our dis-ease is the imbalance of one's inability and fraility to embrace the deeper truth of who we really are ... beyond all time and space!

Finally I will address the idea of how being a peacemaker plays out in the family and work environments ...

There must first be a safe space cleared and free for the heart to be open to receive the energies of all those that one comes into contact with. It is in this space that the attributes of compassion, empathy and understanding truly stand out. The concept of being able to truly walk in the steps of another in order to fully embrace them completely and unconditionally within all circumstance IS the order at hand when one chooses the role of a peacemaker. To be unselfish in the serving really requires the inner work of maintaining a container of balance in all aspects. Your vessel must be emptied of ego tendancies in order for the serving to be filled with God's divine presence. This requires work on the human part as well as much sacrifice. The sacrifice though is only to let go of the illusions that have played a part in providing many different playgrounds for us to experience. All of this leads us directly to the very beginning of the article and the essential attributes that are necessary for this to be birthed outwardly. We first must live this on the inside, within every aspect of our being. It is then that we automatically resonate the purity of this essence for all to embrace and receive. Peace begins inside each of us when we give ourselves the premission to simply be all that and more ....


Namaste to all in love, light and infinite abundance .....



Friday, April 11, 2008

... gifted moments ...

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It is with complete gratitude that I offer this space today to honour the essence of spirit and the wondrous ways our lives can be gifted should we allow for the love of God to be embraced in all of our levels of existence. It is through the process of understanding and compassion in the moments we are called upon to display tolerance and acceptance to those sometimes extremely difficult experiences we find ourselves involved in; be it alone or with others we have chosen to love. There are many unexpected events and opportunities that greet us each moment of each breath that may or maynot be what we believe to be ideal circumstances. Sometimes these experiences may be short lived while others may require time; time to work themselves out so that peace and clarity can be the gift given. For those of us whom have the infinite patience to endure the trying moments while trusting the ushering in of our desires .... I applaud you today and everyday for the courage it takes to remain humbled and steady in the face of adversity. Seasons change as do the paths of the good red road we walk as we grow into the magnificence of wholeness of who we all truly are! "I am that, I am", IS, who we all are - We must always try to remember to celebrate our victories in movement, no matter how large or small they appear. This is OUR life, these are OUR treasured moments, this is WHY we are here and HOW we can change, once we accept the power that lies within us all as that of complete and supreme oneness to love! Thank you to every single being I have been blessed to have share in my journey thus far ... thank you for the many "teachable moments" you all have brought forth for me; thank you for the freedom in KNOWING that in order to have everything one must be willing to surrender everything ...
And so it is - let our hearts continue to guide us with infinite courage,divine grace,sacred wisdom to know that everything we desire is right here right now ... namaste and gods blessings to all - a very grateful apachebluemoon

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

... s stroke of insight ...

Good day and blessings to all - I am full of infinite gratitude for this wondrous universe we call home. I am so consistently amazed with the constant gifts that are freely given to those whom choose to be awake enough to receive and embrace the everyday miracles. I am giving an enormous heartfelt thanks to my dear friend Shelley for thinking about me, as she always does, in forwarding on an email pertaining to one woman's personal experience that she courageously shares. I offer you the link to click on should your heart be interested in hearing and embracing an incredible story of rediscovery and truth! The person I speak of is Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor, a neuroanatomist brain scientist. It is a powerful story about how our brains define us and connect us to the world and to one another. Please take 18 minutes and watch the recorded clip (found at the side under Links) called Dr. Jill Taylor ..... in abundance of light, love and peace - namaste beautiful ones ... apachebluemoon

Sunday, February 03, 2008

.. and with the roar of the engines we were off ...

Hello to all ... I have not had the glorious opportunity to share thoughts of anykind on this blog for the last few days as I have been in the mode of travel and not able to connect to the internet. How interesting and profound a thought when one feels disconnected and unable to reach out to those they would in a usual manner. Time contraints, travel delays, harsh winter conditions ... so similar to the inner dragons one must face from time to time when there may be moments of depression, misunderstandings, or simple miscommunications that dance to a song out of ones' apparent control. This duality that supports the illusion of separation can certainly bring about the state of confusion and frustration. CONNECTION is the theme of this post, although until I began to type I had no previous thoughts as to the content of this message. Amazing how spirit always has truth that needs to be revealed. I type this as I sit on the balcony in this very beautiful spot in San Juan. It truly is a heavenly place, especially to those of us Canadians whom at this time of year are used to minus degree weather and not 80 - 90 full sunshine ... I feel quite blessed right now! The physical journey to travel here was full of minor interruptions ... unexpected delays and cancellations that postponed our initial arrival. Funny though, there was peace in the moments and trust as the plane was about to take off from the very snowy conditions that plagued Chicago with a storm. The trust factor was very much a choice in my being as I peered out the window to see some snow still on the wing, even after de-icing, just moments before take off. I looked at the facial expression of my husband to see that he too had noticed my findings. There was a minute when we silently contemplated whether or not we would say something to the flight attendants but trustingly decided not to ... for me this was a hugh thing as anyone who has had the delightful experience of being with me on a plane, knows my state of being while flying .... usually not one of complete total calm!! Of course, as I ponder this now, I realize that the fear was one of separation and disconnection and all of those crazy things that most of us human beings have felt at some point in this life. For this, I am grateful in the strength it took and continues to take for one to choose trust in situations that call for endurance, patience, knowing and certainty. I am grateful for the mantras that were available for me to silently repeat and for the constant angels that forever watch our flights, be it in the air or on this very sacred ground! My prayer tonight is for all whom have ever shared in feelings of disconnection or separation at some point along this journey. May the light of the holy spirit lift you always to know the truth that all things are always as they should be and to trust the unfoldments as they come within the wisdom and grace of your soul .... in abundant blessings and infinite love - apachebluemoon

Monday, January 28, 2008

... so fundamentally male ...


Well ... to those of you whom are my male readers, this title should grab your attention! Relax, there are no judgements or sly comments coming - in fact, mere observation. Today was very interesting as it brought forth the opportunity for me to serve as a sounding board for a few special people. The main theme spoken and shared was that of the "male energies" and how the fears and control play a crucial part in so many of the relationship playgrounds we all find ourselves in, no matter the depth of evolution! Now this is not to say one has to be male in body parts in order to experience the male energy ... quite on the contrary, as each of our beautiful beings are made up of both feminine and masculine tendancies. What is being referred to here is the element of the ego when in the mode of control ... when the feminine qualities of love, understanding and compassion are being buried and hidden within the expression of doubts, ignorance, supreme assertiveness, judgements etc. We have all experienced this, some firsthand within self and/or on the receiving end of another being. Nonetheless, the manner in which it is delivered is not really the issue at hand. The truth being touched upon here is the damage to the spirit when one is involved in this form of energy exchange. It is said that, "there is nothing to control, it is only a state of being...." My heart tells me this is true and as a present, loving spiritual being here on this earth plane to experience the human experience - it does seem fitting that there would have to be moments where both of the energy components within us would need to find their own means of healthy expression. The key though, is to recognize and support the "healthy expression" of both our own masculine and feminine qualites all awhile honouring the balance that resides within that very sacred dynamic. My sweet precious friend whom ended our conversation with , "it is just so fundamentally male", is being honoured and showered with gratitude tonight for her profound awareness and insight. I acknowledge this gift of truth that those words have brought forth for all to contemplate; for truly when there IS a balance, there is nothing to control! My prayer for all in this moment, is for a space of silence in which to bath and cleanse our souls free; to embrace the responsibility that lays within the gifting of any wisdom which is always, "the ability to respond" ... may your beings be surrounded and engulfed within the light of the very balanced holy spirit as you lay your heads down to rest tonight ... god bless to all - apachebluemoon

Saturday, January 26, 2008

you are greater than any of your actions

... you can transcend all things that you have had done and participated in doing ...

HOW is this accomplished one might ask when so many of us live in a world that appears to be richly laden with memories of uncertainty and deep rooted misunderstandings of experiences gone bad! Are these just words and guidance of good intent or can there really be truth to this profound release of bondage to the heart?
As mystics and ancient wise ones have taught for eternity ... yes - all of this IS more than just a figment of a crazy person's imagination. Sacred Love begins inside ... self love is a process of rediscovering what has never been destroyed. It is the dance with ones' essence that has awaited and called us all, some more than others. A truer source of strength is generated within us all when there is a change of perception. This movement is the connection that guides and allows the gentle flow into ones' union with the true, divine spiritual source ... the void that contains the sum of all god, right here, right now in this very moment of present time and heavenly presence ....
The choice, as always, is ours! My prayer for the day is to recognize that beautiful opportunity of newness that calls your name; the one that invites you in to savour perhaps a different thought, or gesture that will invoke a deeper connection and meaning to who you truly are ... no need to fear the unknown, you are loved and the world awaits your gift, your smile, your serving!!! love and blessings ... apachebluemoon

Thursday, January 24, 2008

...ahhhhh ...


Hmmm.... so beautiful as they say when one can sit long enough to be still in the moment to view the silver lining in the clouds. I am grateful beyond any words in this precious moment for the consistent, ever-so-present gifting of the divine to each of us, as these wonderful beings and children of the universe!! Yesterday's call out has been answered although the manifestation has still yet to arrive for the physical eyes to view! The power within truth when shared with souls of the same frequency is absolute in its' creation. I gleefully await the comings of this sacred expression that is being laboured as I am guided to write this blog. Who would of thought just 7 months ago while joining together in sacred commune, most of us stangers in the physical, would be brought together now, in this moment, to begin a process of co-creation that will truly help to serve the world ... it is to be a "world peace organization" that is filled with infinite love, wisdom and all that is miraculously being called forward by the universe! THANK YOU - this is the gift of abundant gratitude I offer all today, this day, as we continue to birth our dreams ... namaste loved ones, namaste - apachebluemoon

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

.. and so it is ...

One never knows what the day will bring or the feelings, thoughts, associations or perceptions that may find their way - I was awoken this morning to a deep sense of isolation; almost as if my spirit self had disappeared not even to be found underneath the covers. Now, of course, not fully understanding the depth of any of what was appearing SO REAL to me in those moments, I found myself immediately in a mode of infinite surrender ... calling on all those to be beside me - almost like a SOS call to the higher beings I know that are always here in my presence. I was not fearful - just completely "beaten down" if that can even come close to the moment. Thoughts of finding a cave, hanging my hat and simply just allowing all to flow through was more real to me than my usual "morning coffee fix". I found myself guided to the computer to check emails and within moments I was replying to a friend's message she had sent the night before. Before I knew it, my fingers were typing 10,000 words a minute (slight exageration) to see right beneath my glasses the words describing this incredible state of "whatever" it was I was being blessed to experience. I could go into detail with all of my glorious descriptive measures but will save that as the truer meaning to all of this soon was shown. I placed my response into the draft section so that I could go and have a shower. When I returned to the computer, a few things happened. First, I was led to checking another site to find this email awaiting my arrival:
"Because it is your responsibility to handle this level, no one can really tell you what to do, and you can't really blame anyone else for what happens to you. As choices present themselves to you, you might feel confused, doubtful, or bewildered. The future can become fraught with fears because you can't predict what's going to happen. That fear becomes a form of suffering. Again, the way to get out of that fear is to bring yourself present, in the now, and live in each moment." (John-Roger ... "Loving Each Day")
The second gift was to receive a beautiful call out from one of the seminarians that I was honoured to share space with at the retreat in June - her comment was "that it has been 7 months since the retreat and there is a sense of drifting ..."Certainly no mistakes as the information continued to flood in. By now, I am fully awake and present that my morning mood was more than just a mood - I was being told something although until I opened yet another email I was still not quite sure. The final gift was that, another message sent to me while I had been typing my response to my friend. I had no idea this exchange of truth was happening at the same time. In her message, she proceeds to share all of what I was previously feeling ... she described in detail everything that I had typed as if we had seen each others' thoughts .... there truly are no words except for the acknowledgement of divine workings. Once you can slow your pace and allow whatever thoughts to run their course, all solutions and answers will find you.... I am amazed at the state of being I am one with in this moment .... a completely different experience than just moments ago! I do believe that we have the power in our choices to be that peace, be that love, be all of whom we have come here to be .... it truly is not in the doing but rather in the acceptance and glory of all things! The conclusion to this early morning call with spirit physically left me to see on my screen a recent interview with Osama Bin Laden's son .... and his quest for world peace!!! Within the very heart and essence of us all IS the same gift of truth .... the oneness we all share even if the individual struggles seem to separate us from this deeper sacred reality.... On this day, my prayer for all, is to go forward in the knowing and understanding that peace does prevail - always ... it just might take some time and courage to see it! Love and light, in oneness with all ...apachebluemoon

Sunday, January 20, 2008

foundations



What an interesting time I find self and soul in these last few weeks. The birthing of a new year, the dawning of innocence and flow of long awaited and embraced wisdom sits before us all should we be willing to say "yes" to all of what it entails. Does the commitment of today's yes align itself with yesterday's knowings or have those too been given an opportunity to expand as does the universe right before our very own eyes! Do we remain placed in the so very comfortable roles we have become familar with or do we dare step up and out into the vulnerability that accompanies the journey of the heart back into sacred soul? Questions appear each and every moment for one to decide the next move ... confusions as the matrix or puzzle pieces of our lives are rearranged and placed in their sanctioned space of perfection. Where does one go when darkness shows it's magical calling; how does one face the unknowingness of what anything truly means? I have challenged my being these last few weeks in the hope of having all be revealed as I continue on to surrender to what has become the only reality I can ever know for my self and being from this point forward. It has taken me back into my foundation ... a gift to see all of who I am and not through the eyes of others but rather through that of my creator. My essence that sometimes appears fragmented and torn as others' seek solace within their own understandings, through me, of what life and purpose mean to them while in their own travels. Divine appointments with the mother and father of me, this being I have so come to know, once again. I have touched the love that has never left me or can never be destroyed; no matter who chooses to see this and accept this. The realness of spending 7 hours alone in the blessed sanctuary in direct commune with those ascended masters who are with me every moment, every breath ... my life can never or will ever be the same again. To be allowed this profound experiece of dancing with the angels, singing in complete harmony, surrendering to the calibration of miracles .... how can I ever give into the darkness after having felt the presence of all? Today I give the completeness of my heart - I honour and acknowledge the infinite gratitude I have for all beings, all life, all love! I have been shown the truth that I had so long ago asked to be shown but so afraid to embrace. The power of the feminine, the beauty of divine sacred union - all of this and so much more. I am home .. in the arms of those who will guide me to reach beyond and offer the truth to all whom desire to be reached and shown the love of God that dwells within the gift of divine creation. I wipe the tears from falling as I write this from the very depth of my heart, my oneness with the essence of all life. Remember the truth, embrace the foundation, uphold the spirit that makes this day worth living .... in love and light with peace as your guide ... apachebluemoon